April ;

1 ;
Los Coyotes Middle School .

2 ;
Late Start .
Swim Meet Against Cerritos At Cerritos .

3 ;
Krystal's House .
Dcon ! (:

4 ;
Happy Birthday Angel !
Savanna Invite .
Dcon !

5 ;
Dcon !
iHop .
Krystal's House .
Alexis's House .

6 ;
Pajama Day .
Show Decades Dance .
Decades Practice .
Paige's House .
Francheska's House .

7 ;
Superhero Day .
Eastwood .
Francheska Time .

8 ; Nerd Day .
Krystal's House .
Decades Practice .
Souplatation Fundraiser .

9 ;
Decades Day .
Krystal's House .
Decades Dance Off !

10 ;
Good Friday .
Spring Break Starts .
Movies .
Krystal's House .

11 ;
Grandma's House .
LAX .
Houston , Texas .

12 ;
Happy Easter !
Houston , Texas .
Run Arrands With Uncle .
Visit Great Grandma !

13 ;
Houston , Texas .
SHOPPING !

14 ;
Happy Birthday Maya !
Houston , Texas .
Dallas , Texas .
SHOPPING .

15 ;
Dallas , Texas .
SHOPPING !
Hang Out With The Cousins(:

16 ;
Dallas , Texas .
Houston , Texas .

17 ;
Houston , Texas .
Happy Birthday Czarina !
Potluck :[

18 ;
Houston , Texas .
HOMEE<3

19 ;
Vietnamese School .
Downtown Disney .
Eye Doctors .

20 ;
Random Adventures .

21 ;
Kohl's .
Costco .
Wal-Mart .

22 ;
Earth Day .
Happy Birthday LINH !
Key Club Breakfast .
Random Adventures .
Brea Mall .
Red Lobsters .

23 ;
Swim Meet Against Mayfair / Calvary Chapel At Splash .
Joann's .

24 ;
Swim Meet Against Sonora At Splash .
Francheska Time .

25 ;
Swim Car Wash .
Albert's House .
Chill With My Boys(:
Krystal's House .
Benton Carnival .

26 ;
Vietnamese School .
Eye Doctor's .

27 ;
Random Adventures With Family .

28 ;
Field Trip !
Swim Meet Against Lakewood At Splash .
El Pollo Loco .
Ralph's .

29 ;
Baskin Robins .

30 ;
Late Start .
Swim Meet Against Artesia At Artesia .
La Mirada Open House .

March .

March 1 ;
Vietnamese School .
Richard Time .

March 2 ;
Family Time .

March 3 ;
Krystal's House .

March 4 ;
Get Kidnapped By Richard And Matt .

March 5 ;
Swim Meet Against La Habra At Splash .

March 6 ;
Happy 18th Birthday Anthony ! (:
Richard Time .
Francheska Time .

March 7 ;
Dad Leaves To Louisiana .
Olive Garden .
Krystal Time .

March 8 ;
Vietnamese School .
Richard Time .

March 9 ;
Positive Alternatives Pictures .
Richard Time .

March 10 ;
Swim Meet Against Whitter At Splash .

March 11 ;
Random Adventures With Richard And Matt .
Wendy's .
Jeff's Cousin's House .
Dad Comes Home .

March 12 ;
Swim Meet Against Ocean View At Splash .
Richard Time .

March 13 ;
Brea Mall With Krystal !

March 14 ;
Francheska Time .
Richard Time .
Sunny Hills Sadies .

March 15 ;
Swim Pictures .
Vietnamese School .
Target .
Joann's .

March 16 ;
Sport's Authority .
Kohl's .
Wal-Mart .

March 17 ;
Late Start .
Swim Meet Against California At Splash .

March 18 ;
Late Start .
Krystal's House .

March 19 ;
Swim Meet Against Kennedy At Kennedy .

March 20 ;
Richard(: .
La Mirada Sadies .

March 21 ;
Sister Time !

March 22 ;
Vietnamese School .
Uncle's House .
Cerritos .

March 23 ;
Decades Practice .

March 24 ;
Swim Meet Against Paramount At Splash .
Decades Practice .

March 25 ;
Key Club Meeting .
Pasta Party .
Decades Practice .

March 26 ;
Happy Birthday AMBER !
Swim Meet Against Downey At Downey .

March 27 ;
Bolsa Chica .
Hang Out With Aimee And Ricky .
Francheska's House .

March 28 ;
Key Club Car Wash .
Amber's Birthday Party !
Krystal's House !

March 29 ;
Vietnamese School .
Target .

March 30 ;
Happy Birthday Justin ! (:
Matador Madness Day !
Decades Practice .
Border's .

March 31 ;
Key Club Meeting .
Decades Practice .

March 14, 2009

This is Day 1 . I rummage through my phone looking for numbers to all . I feel like my life has been taken away. The want and need of my best friends are horrible . They are my ride or dies , they really are . Without them I am nothing . I love how they make me feel . The smiles they give me . The way I live is because they support me. I Have never felt so empty . I feel like I can't even write all the good memories I have had . For the death of my soul and mind are the blame of the ones that also have created me . It's just another human body walking on the face of the earth , taking up space. I will never say or do more . The more I think about living without them , the more the tears make my face glisten in the dim light of my room and night sky . I feel like . . . I can't even say , I barely am able to breathe . This is no exaggeration , not even . I really do feel this way , I am beyond amazed how I can write in this . I always wished for moral support from my mother and father . I craved the need and the care from them . In the summertime on the swim team , it was time to go to regionals , and I ended up going with a friend , no support . When I mentioned to my father that my swim meets will be where he was already going to be , all he could say was , So What ? The attention they give me was the wrong kind . When I needed them , they weren't there , that is why I always depended on my best friends , ALWAYS . I have never been depressed , until this day . This not only the time of an economic depression , but now the start of mine . All I ever asked for in life was people who loved me , the only ones that showed me love was the people that I shared no DNA with . Always criticism came to mind . Never a good job , I Am proud of you , but a , ONLY ? , you should of gotten first , or any thing to avoid what I had achieved , just a want or strive for more . The things I had done for them always never seemed pleasing . They think what I try , is not enough , I try and fail . But I have never given up . I NEVER will . I really don't , I Am not the perfect child they were hoping and asked for . I don't know how to achieve the goal and what they expect out of me . The beginning of life is taken with a breathe . Without air , there is life . Right now , I am in a room with NO AIR . The expectations if life . Chronic depression is what brings everybody down . Now , I ask for life . I Want something I Can't have . How that is the one thin I want the most in this life . The story of my life has now become a book . This is just a chapter . But who knows ,this chapter might end right here . I live my life to the fullest always , with this road block , I will still try and achieve my goal in life . There is not stop to me . With the ways I try to make the two that have shown me life and dropped me , this is no succession to them . I am proud to be the living proof of the failure . To they think I am the only one with this problem , they have never visualized the outside world . " I have been there " is what I hear constantly . They may HAVE been there , but that was then and this is now , NOW is different . I can only hope and wonder if they will ever understand the time and things that we have to go through . Maybe open a bottle of life , and take a nice gulp . The day that they realize what is really LIFE . That day will be the best day of my entire life . The day where I can actually be proud to be their daughter . Right now , I am just proud to be a BEST friend . I ask and beg for so much . The thing I would like most right now is the pass to get a away from madness and anger . My parents want me to follow and live my good life , with them , how they act , they are no role models them selfs . I strive to not be like the people who they are . I strive to be different , I am different . This is the close of this chapter .

Week 4 ;

February 22 ;
Vietnamese School .
Krystal's House .

February 23 ;
Surprises By Richard .

February 24 ;
First Swim Meet Against Cypress . [ Canceledd ]
Krystal's House .
Fiance's House<3(:

February 25 ;
Hawks Pointe .
Jeffery's House .

February 26 ;
Krystal's House .
Golden Spoon Fundraiser .

February 27 ;
Krystal's House .
Jonas Brother 3D Movie !
TGI's Friday .

February 28 ;
California Adventure's With James .
Richardd Timee .

Week 3 ;

February 15 ;
Vietnamese School .
The Block Of Orange .
Rachel And Krystal Sleepover .
- Swimming In My Bathtub .
- CVS And Am And Pm .

February 16 ;
No School .
Happy Birthday Mark .
Swim Practice .
Krystal's House .

February 17 ;
Family Time .

February 18 ;
Key Club Elections .
Eastwood Open House .

February 19 ;
Late Start .
Positive Alternative's Meeting .
Marker's House .

February 20 ;
Happy Birthday CJ !
Time Trials .
Feel The Beat Concert .
ALbert's House .
FUNNNN DAYYY !

February 21 ;
Liezel's House .
Richard Time .

Week 2 ;

February 8 ;
Vietnamese School .
Errands .

February 9 ;
No School .
Krystal Time .

February 10 ;
Swim Season Officially Starts .

February 11 ;
Family Time .

February 12 ;
Family Time .

February 13 ;
Happy Birthday Nam !
Key Club Meeting .
Krystal's House .
Shakey's For Nam's Birthday .

February 14 ;
Happy Valentine's Day .
Cerritos Mall With Fiance .
Dinner With Grandmaa .

Week 1 ;

February 1 ;
Vietnamse School .
Hair Cut .
Hoi Choi Tet With Cousin .

February 2 ;
First Day Of Swim .

February 3 ;
Francheska's House .

February 4 ;
Random Adventures .

February 5 ;
Late Start .
Mall With Krystal .
Open House At La Mirada .

February 6 ;
Francheska Time .
Family Time .

February 7 ;
Francheska Time .

Week 4 ;

January 25 ;
No Vietnamese School .
Grandma's House ;
Early Celebration For Chinese New Years .

January 26 ;
Happy Chinese New Years .

January 27 ;
Francheska's House .
Cram For Finals .

January 28 ;
Minimum Day .
Finals ; Algebra 2 , Language Arts , P.E. , Biology .
Christy's House .

January 29 ;
Minimum Day .
Finals ; Algebra 2 , Clothing , World History , Spanish .
Last Day Of Semester .
Krystal's House .
Karen Surprised Me With Chocolate Muffins<3

January 30 ;
No School .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIEN AND CHRISTY(:
DISNEYLAND And Downtown Disney With Krystal !
I Haven't Had That Much Fun In A Really Long Time .

January 31;
Grandma's House .
Late Chinese New Years Celebration .

Week 3 ;

January 18 ;
Happy Birthday MargetMommy<3
Skipped Vietnamese School .

January 19 ;
No School !
Lame Day =/

January 20 ;
Francheska's House .

January 21 ;
Swim Team Informational Meeting !

January 22 ;
Late Start .
Michelle's House .
FUN ! FUN ! FUN !
YLA Graduation(:
Tehehehe .

January 23 ;
Stay Home , Bum It !

January 24 ;
Clean Room .
Picked Up Calvin .
Westminster Mall (:
- Make A Statement !
Run Errands With Calvin .
Ate Dinner .
" Are You Gonna Finish That ? " LOL .
Gooood Day ! <3

Week 2 ;

January 11 ;
Vietnamese School ! (:
Had Midterms , LOL , Didn't Do It !
Second Chances♥

January 12 ;
Happy Birthday Amanda West !
Christy's House .

January 13 ;
Go To CJ's House .
LOL , He Is My Tutor(;

Went To Convince My Grandma To Eat ,
Success !

January 14 ;
Francheska's House .

January 15 ;
Go To Target With Krystal And Karen (:
Krystal's House .

January 16 ;
Krystal Time !
Go To The Hair Salon With Krystal And Karen .
Bruce Came And Picked Me And Krystal Up .
Burger King .
LOL , ANGRY BURGER !
Dad Came .
Fight With Parents D:<
Sister Bonding Time .

January 17 ;
Go To Cerritos To Honor Grandpa's Death<3

Week 1 ;

January 3 ;
Go To Cousins House .
Tiennn<3

January 4 ;
Vietnamese School .
Family Reunion .
Met People I Had No Clue Who They Were .
Roamed Asian Town .

January 5 ;
Welcome Back To School .
Go To Christy's House .
Worked On The Energy Project And Had A Little Funn(:

January 6 ;
Hung Out With The Family .

January 7 ;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSIE(:
Library With Margaret .
She Attempted To Tutor Me [x
Went Back To Her House .
Hung Out .
Played With Her Dog(:

January 8 ;
Dad Leaves To Vegas .
Go To Krystal's House (:

January 9 ;
Go To Angel's House For A Little Bit .
Dad Comes Home .

January 10 ;
Saturday School .
Run Errands With Dad And Sister .

Week 4 ;

December 27 ;
Leave For Las Vegas .
Stay At The Mgm .
Walk Around Last Vegas At Night .

December 28 ;
Leave Las Vegas .
Go To The Las Vegas Premium Outlets .

December 29 ;


December 30 ;
CJ Comes Over(:

December 31 ;
Go To Asian Town .
Westminster Mall .

January 1 ;
HAPPY NEW YEARS !
Stayed Home , But Had Fun(:

January 2 ;
LBTC WITH MICHELLE(:
Watched The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button .
Shopping A Little .
Food Court !